"You jest, but these are the exact circumstances that people find themselves in right before they start having sex for money and making porn." - Miri
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"If it's so easy, how come everybody doesn't do it?" - Miri
"Because other people have options. And dignity. Which we do not have. Which puts us in an amazingly advantageous position." - Zack
"Fuck you. I have dignity." - Miri
"Where? Is it hidden in your gigantic underpants that are plastered all over the internet? Is that where you hide your dignity?" - Zack
Today I had my first shift as a retail shoe slut. Better than I feared, but it still reminded me (in under than four hours no less) of all the reasons I was not sad to leave retail behind when I graduated from college. Still it beats making a porno (I am not yet THAT desperate--yet being the key word--my other ridiculous back-up plans (i.e. marry a filthy rich septogenarian; become a madame of a European brothel; work at Disneyland dressed up as a Princess; and find a sugar daddy) would probably come about before that one) and at least I'm making more than I did working at the local independent bookstore sophomore year (minimum wage at the time in Nebraska being a mere $5.15/hour). And money is money. The bills must be paid and my unemployment benefits are very nearly used up. Previously, I've always been saved at the last moment from actually having to return to the world of retail sluttism. But, apparently, I've pissed off some important and powerful omniscient being and said being is bent on ruining my life. I'm also convinced that he or she is attempting to wash the Dallas/Fort Worth metroplex off the map. One of the heaviest bursts of rain occurred, of course, just as I arrived home from work, so not only did I have aching feet and a migraine, but I also had to towel myself dry because I looked like a drowned rat. Is there something terribly wrong with me for wanting to quit this job before I've even finished training?
Everyone who has ever worked in retail or food service has wanted to quit in their first hour of training. It is totally normal, and no reason to start making porn just yet. (When your power is shut off, and the water is gone, then you can start considering it.)
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