That line from one of my favorite songs by The Vandals just seemed an appropriate way to open this post.
I got the most recent season dvds of Psych and How I met your mother last week, so I spent the last few days having marathon watching sessions (until my bedroom dvd player died, that is. poor overly used player, may it rest in peace). It reminded me of just how AWESOMELY HILARIOUS they both are. There are also two scenes from the end of the season of HIMYM that just really hit me. So I'm posting them.
Ted: "I'm gonna say something out loud that I've been doing a pretty good job of not saying out loud lately. What you and Tony have, what I thought for a second you and I had, what I know Lily and Marshall have. I want that. I do. I keep waiting for it to happen and waiting for it to happen and... I guess I'm just... I'm tired of waiting. And that is all I'm going to say on that subject."
Stella: "You know I once talked my way out of a speeding ticket?
Ted: "Really?"
Stella: "I was heading upstate to my parents' house, doing like 90 on this country road, and I got pulled over. So this cop gets out of his car, swaggers on over and says, 'Young lady, I have been waiting for you all day.' So I looked up at him and I said, 'I'm so sorry, officer. I got here as fast as I could.' "
Ted: "For real?"
Stella: "No, it's an old joke. I know that you're tired of waiting. And you may have to wait a little while more, but she's on her way, Ted, and she's getting here as fast as she can."
It reminds me of how one of my friends is always saying that the person we're meant to be with is being prepared for us, in the same way that we're being prepared for them and we will meet when we're both finally ready for it.
Ted: "How am I going to come back from this?"
Lily: "Do you really want to come back from this?"
Ted: "What do you mean?"
Lily: "Architecture is killing you, Ted, and it's killing us to watch it killing you. You're like that goat with the wash cloth. You want it so bad. And every time the world tries to take it away from you, you keep grabbing it. You know what? It's just a wash cloth. Why do you even want it?"
Ted: "Because I have to be an architect. That's the plan."
Lily: "Screw the plan. I planned on being a famous artist. Marshall planned on being an environmental lawyer. Robin planned on being a TV reporter...Barney planned on being a violinist...Look, you can't design your life like a building. It doesn't work that way. You just have to live it and it will design itself."
Ted: "So I should just do nothing?"
Lily: "No. Listen to what the world is telling you to do and take the leap."
This hits so close to home because I struggled with this a lot the past year. I planned on being a writer. But I can't support myself with that yet. And being a proofreader isn't getting me anywhere. I've moved backwards the past year rather than forwards. I used to do proofing and editing and writing. Now I'm solely a proofer. I can't see any way forward in this field that's going to make me happy in five or ten years. So I'm taking the leap. I'm trying something new. If I'm lucky I won't plummet to the ground with my dreams shattered around me. Either way, it's a huge risk and a lot of work. But I know it's the only way I'll be able to do more than survive.
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